Nobody reads whole articles on the internet anymore. I'm especially guilty of skimming or deciding in the first paragraph whether a news article or blog post is worth my attention, so I fully expect you'll do the same. I'm just here to keep talking about Jesus, because I believe that's the only message that will still resonate in 10,000 years.

Many conservative type people are sounding the gongs of dismay because they think we now live in a dystopian, 1984-style society. I think that's hilarious, considering the former administration was blasting lies from day one (inaugural crowd size, anyone?) and didn't stop even after people violently stormed the US Capitol on baseless allegations of election fraud. My preferred dystopian metaphor has always been Huxley's Brave New World, because realistically I think that's where Christian conservatives are headed in the future: banished to the outer wilds, away from "modern" civilization.

As long as you're content to live in the countryside, I don't see anyone coming out to bother you. City dwellers like myself are very happy with our diversions and amusements. The word "amuse" itself is remarkable in this context, since its Greek morphology denotes "a-" as the absence of and "muse" as in thinking, pondering, or being creative. We liberal city dwellers will be content in the future to take our soma (a mind and emotion-numbing drug in Huxley's world), live promiscuously, and laugh at the "savages" who live outside the mainstream.

What should concern you, dear Christian conservatives, is that by removing yourselves to the outer reaches of society, you have become roughly as quaintly remarkable as the Amish. Your ways are strange and backwards, and anyone who flees your insular culture for the big city will be taken in with open arms. That's essentially what happened when I moved from Augusta, GA to the D.C. metro area.

​I've previously made it clear that I was always anti-Trump from the very beginning of his candidacy. You conservatives sold out your Biblical values to install an absolute child and clown, hoping the political ends would justify the means. Before applying to Georgetown was ever a thought in my mind, I knew for a fact that that man was a fraud and an embarrassment to conservative values. It didn't require any "liberal indoctrination" by higher education for me to realize that this man was the pied piper for stupid people. It's tragic that so many people I love and respect, many of them college-educated, were swept up by bravado and lies.

You are now collectively faced with the choice of either admitting you were bamboozled by a used car salesman, or never being listened to again. My prayer is that you will choose the former, so that hopefully the Republican party can be rebuilt around humble, Christ-following people who merely believe in small government, the sanctity of life, and personal responsibility. If you keep clinging to conspiracy theories about millions of fraudulent votes and voting machines (which have all been soundly disproved in every single court where those cases were heard), you will never be listened to by society again.

For the sake of the Gospel, and for the sake of preserving the party I called home my entire young life, I am pleading with all of you to put Jesus Christ, and not Donald Trump, back onto the throne of your life. Trump lied to you at every turn, used his office almost exclusively for his personal gain, and tried his best to become a real and true dictator by sending his staunchest acolytes on a mission of violence against our democratic process. That's not Christianity.

There now remains the work of trying to rebuild.

Nehemiah was a book all about rebuilding. After obtaining permission from Artaxerxes to return to Jerusalem and inspect his ruined hometown, Nehemiah knew he had his work cut out for him:

It's been a brutal week, regardless of your politics. In spite of the final result of the election (which I would consider ideal), I think we're all feeling exhausted after a year of shattered expectations, disappointing surprises, and ultimately a sense that the world is somehow unraveling.

I recently came across this lengthy article from the Atlantic, and it immediately reminded me of another article which I read years ago from the Art of Manliness. The Atlantic article deals with many salient issues related to our modern social turmoil, but the primary cause on that author's account is the erosion of trust within our society. AoM, by contrast, argues that it's merely a normal generational cycle of crises which has played out throughout the course of history. Essentially they're both saying the same thing, which is that societies tend to experience massive political and social upheaval roughly every 60 years.

Whether you acknowledge the election as a crisis or a victory for human decency (I put myself firmly in the latter category), there has been a general sense of foreboding about the future in my life for virtually this entire year. We all sense that something awful is coming, and we have yet to fully put our finger on what it is.

I believe in a Savior who is coming back someday to judge the earth. The more world events spiral out of control, the more many Christians feel validated that "Jesus is coming back any day now!!!" Though it may be comforting to think that we will get to skip out on any kind of tribulation, I don't find that view particularly biblical. I also think it smacks of C.S. Lewis's "chronological snobbery" to think that we are the most modern and advanced generation that has ever lived, and certainly must be the ones who will never taste of mortal death. In fact, the first recorded Viking raid on the monastic community of Lindisfarne in 793 AD was taken by the English monks (and by all of Europe as the word spread) as a sign that the Man of Perdition had come, and the end of days must surely be upon us. What it really was was a single tumultuous event, signaling the beginning of a new era of greater uncertainty when Vikings would be raiding at will along the European coast.

History is replete with turning points. Though the 20th century was indeed a time of great upheaval, the likes of which we hope to never see again, I wish to discourage the kind of chronological snobbery that leads us to think we will certainly be the ones to see God's plan come to fruition in our lifetimes. We should definitely have a sense of hopeful expectancy that God can and will do whatever he pleases, but also remain steadfast and fixed upon Him as we patiently endure without becoming swept away by our emotions.

If our generation is facing a period of upheaval and global crisis (as seems increasingly likely), I would counsel everyone to remember that pain is one of God's primary tools for pruning you. Whether  our nation fractures due to internal disputes, or faces an existential threat, we must remember that God has not called us to a life of idle monasticism; but rather to engage meaningfully with our culture in order to meet felt needs. In our generation, those felt needs are largely social. For instance, the church should be leading the charge, not taking up the rear, on issues of racial justice. We should also be calling for unity in the Body, not pushing political parties as the primary vehicles for social change. We should "hate what is evil, and cling to what is good." We should clothe the naked, feed the hungry, and welcome the foreigner and the destitute and the uninsured. Above all, we need to be about the business of trying to seek and save the lost.

Finally, we need to ready our minds and hearts for action, because the time is fast approaching when dark forces in the world will once again cast society into disarray. Christians should be at the vanguard of whatever crisis our society faces, bringing not just practical solutions, but spiritual warfare and prayerful, loving care for those who are most deeply affected. If it's a war, let us fight bravely. If it's a global health crisis, let us tenderly and selflessly give of our time and resources to help those less fortunate. Whatever it is, God will be there. The task falls to us to not grow weary in well-doing.

This is nerdy and obscure, but I have to share my excitement: I'm experimenting with Neural Machine Translation in Python, and as of late last night I successfully figured out how to configure my GPU to run machine learning algorithms. Basically, a GPU is a highly specialized calculation device which is usually used to render graphics on a computer, but you can hack them to run multiple machine learning training sessions at a much faster rate than the standard computer processor is capable of.

For those who code, you know how frustrating it can be to fail miserably for weeks, months, or years on a project before seeing any results. Coding is very much a discipline of trial and error, sometimes spectacularly so.

This afternoon, I was reminiscing about the 'good old days' of Star Trek. I used to love nothing more than coming home from school in the afternoons as an elementary school kid and watching it with my dad. TNG was on syndicated reruns by '94, but DS9 and Voyager were still going strong when I graduated to middle school. I decided to watch "Far Beyond the Stars" this afternoon, and I came to an epiphany.

The episode takes place as a dream sequence where Captain Sisko, a black Starfleet Captain, is transported back to 1953. There, he's a struggling science fiction writer who dreams up a world where a man of color can be in charge of a space station. The stark portrayal of racism that he encounters on a daily basis is something that sadly makes the episode extremely relevant even twenty years after it aired.

One thing that I liked a lot, which sadly probably wouldn't be done if it aired today, is that they ended the episode with a quote from the Bible:

In context, it was meant to encourage the audience that racial justice is a struggle without end, but one that ultimately must be continued regardless.

​Yesterday was a historic anniversary, and sadly one that was marked by remembrance of more victims of violence. Though the BLM movement does have a tendency to (dare I use the term?) whitewash the crimes of some recent victims, ultimately the movement is much larger than the simple and controversial slogan "defund the police." What it's really about is putting an end to the normality of people of color getting killed in police encounters, whereas white suspects tend to survive. It shouldn't be controversial to say, "let's stop killing black people," but sadly the state of division in our nation is such that that statement requires clarification.

It is wrong to violently resist a peace officer. I do not deny that some of these suspects were engaged in criminal behavior at the time of their deaths. That being said, conservative America's thirst for violence is such that I actually have to convince Bible-believing Christians that killing shouldn't be their first instinct in any given conflict. There is violence on the other side as well, and nobody denies that. Nevertheless, there is also a profound and undeniable difference between the way black and white offenders are treated.

I will include here the words of a black man, since they themselves ought to be given much more license to speak on this subject than those of us who merely speculate about racism.

The struggle continues for the family of Breonna Taylor and many, many others like her who simply had the misfortune of being suspected of a crime. While I can't offer any meaningful solutions at this juncture (nor do I believe it is in my purview to do so), I will say that the struggle must continue. Until justice rolls like a river, the struggle of this life is ever forward.

My first two posts were all about struggle. At the time, I was going through what I thought was the most difficult season of my life. My current self would laugh at that person in retrospect. Each season of life brings new and worse challenges than the last, because that's the nature of living in a fallen world.

My encouragement to you today, regardless of your politics or the color of your skin, is to keep going. Be humble, be compassionate, but don't you ever give up. As long as you trust Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we know that ultimately you are more than a conqueror, and your eternal rest will more than make up for a life of struggle.

Since I was 12 or 13, I've known how to properly handle a gun. Joining the family business at 19 and serving in the US Navy for ten years also afforded me many exciting training opportunities. I have previously written several times about the necessity of violence, despite my personal hope to avoid it at all costs. I'm extremely grateful to live in a country where I have the freedom to arm myself against any would-be oppressor. That being said, I must also include some important caveats...

Since I keep in touch with the gun-loving community on YouTube and elsewhere, it has become readily apparent to me in recent years, and even more so as the election approaches, that most people who lean conservative believe that a full-on civil war is inevitable. Their language is that of a person with no other recourse. They speak as if freedom-loving Americans and followers of the Christian religion are a besieged minority on the verge of being systematically eradicated.


I have heard this kind of language used in two other places, neither of which are good omens:


First, it is the language of the literally thousands of hours of jihadist propaganda that I've been forced to watch over my military and defense contractor career. Extremist organizations are experts at painting themselves as helpless victims defending themselves against the evils of a monolithic oppressor. While there are indeed cases around the world of Muslims suffering religious persecution (The Uyghur and Rohingya peoples are two prominent examples), the jihadist organizations of the world are experts at making the worldwide plight of Islam seem dangerously precarious, when in fact it isn't. Though some Western nations are in fact implementing overtly anti-Muslim policies, this is not, in fact, a global conspiracy against Islam. Rather, it's a highly xenophobic response to societal change within various countries.

That brings me to my second group who consistently uses the language of the oppressed to justify violence: white supremacists. For my class on Forensic Linguistics, my group decided that our final project would focus on studying the language of mass shooters who published manifestos prior to committing senseless acts of murder. We studied four mass shooters, whose names I refuse to repeat, so that we could try to develop some sort of linguistic methodology to determine if a person might be a future threat. Though they all had strange and ultimately erratic justifications for their acts of unspeakable evil, several common themes did emerge:

1. They all claimed to be acting defensively and as a means of last resort. After a litany of historical "crimes" which they enumerated against the white race, they then proceeded to paint themselves as a "besieged" (their word, not mine) group on the verge of being replaced by "invaders" (another frequent word) who sought to fundamentally transform their country and way of life. This was particularly true of the Christchurch mosque shooter. The language in each of their cases was highly militaristic.

2. They all had a pet enemy that they saw as the single greatest threat to "our way of life." Whether it was Islam, Communist/Socialist ideology, or people of color, each person who committed an evil act went to great lengths to paint their chosen group as the source of all evil in the world, hence further justifying their "defensive" actions.

The point I wish to make, at the end of this lengthy preamble, is that it's extremely easy to justify violence when you've already set your mind to it.

Now to pivot...

Whether we're talking about the Pro-2A community on YouTube, the extreme elements of Antifa and far-left movements that espouse violent revolution (or anarchy) as a primary vehicle for change, or any other form of violent ideology, the key is to sound as if you're just a reasonable person pushed too far.

Has the United States moved in a secular direction in the last 30ish years? Undoubtedly so.

I would point out, however, that unlike Islam, Christianity was not designed to be spread primarily by means of jihad *(See footnote for more)*. We tried Crusades, we tried Inquisitions, and ultimately we concluded (rightly so) that this is neither a lasting nor effective method of bringing about the Kingdom of God. Although Jesus did make some provisions for arming oneself, he also sharply rebuked Peter for attempting to do by flesh what Jesus came to do by his perfect obedience.

The minute you, as a follower of Christ, decide that killing people is your moral right, you are on deeply theologically-suspect terrain. I will grant that the Bible does in fact advocate for capital punishment, and that Augustine did make a solid case for just war theory, but other than cases of mass shooters and other perpetrators of notorious evil, I would argue that your justification for killing needs to be very, very robust before arbitrarily picking up a weapon. Ideally the person in question needs to be thoroughly proven in a court of law to have committed the crime, or you should be acting in defense of your nation against an attacking military force.

The point I wish to make here is not about disarmament. I am not a pacifist, in fact my family lineage includes a famous pacifist-turned-war-hero. C.S. Lewis also wrote an excellent argument entitled "Why I am not a pacifist."

Rather, my goal is to advocate that, like Dietrich Bonhoeffer, we carefully examine our hearts and options before embarking on a path that could lead to violence. Bonhoeffer was executed by the Nazis for his role in the assassination plot against Hitler. He embarked on this course only after YEARS of soul searching, and exhausting all his other options, to include running a smuggling ring to exfiltrate Jews and chairing an underground seminary school that taught sound Christian doctrine when the church was infiltrated by Nazism.

If you've ever found yourself musing idly with like-minded individuals about the coming conflict in our country, I would encourage you to steer those discussions in a direction that seeks to avoid bloodshed. Regardless of your politics, I guarantee there is someone on the other side of the spectrum who is equally, if not more prepared, to do violence than you are. Conservatives think they have a monopoly on firearms, but that is empirically false.

My desperate plea to Americans everywhere is to think twice before reaching for a weapon. We tried that solution between 1861 and 1865, and it ended horribly for the side that was most excited about the conflict at its outset. Breaching the dam of blood will again lead to an outpouring that none of us is prepared for.

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​*Footnote* Some will rightly point out that the vast majority of Islam's practitioners reject violent jihad as a modern imperative. Although this is encouraging to hear, there is no denying the fact that the Quraan does in fact have some commands to that effect (2:191, specifically). Christianity, by contrast, is a call to follow in the steps of a Savior whose mission was to die so that others might live. If you'd like to discuss that difference more, I'd be happy to hear from you via the email button at top of page.


Further addendum: I understand that, just because there is no global conspiracy against Islam, doesn't mean that there is no global conspiracy against Christianity, and I fully acknowledge that the World will make a concerted effort to persecute the Church. My contention is simply that our warlike Savior hasn't returned yet, and when he does he will do by his Word what we cannot do (and shouldn't try to) by our flesh. I will always and forever be against an all-or-nothing mentality when it comes to politics.

Well the seeds I planted are doing well:

Hard to believe how different my life looks even just two months removed from that last post. God truly is doing something amazing in my life, which I may be forced (gladly) to share with everyone in the near future.

Pretty remarkable that seeds can take nothing but dirt, sunlight, and water, and convert them into food and beautiful flowers. God sure made some incredible inventions.

I talk about politics frequently because I live in the nation's capitol, where almost everyone is connected politically. Things that seem remote and distant to the vast majority of Americans spread over thousands of miles are backyard drama for those of us who live in the beltway area. Though I love to wax politic with anyone who will listen, I think it's very important to remember that Jesus ultimately didn't come to overthrow the Romans, he came to save people from their sins.

I have frequently stated that politics will not save our country. I stand by the assertion that any man-made attempt to implement a theocracy on this earth is at best misguided, and at worst downright legalism. The only theocracy that should ever exist is the one Jesus Christ will implement upon his return.

Since this COVID situation first took hold, I've done my best to remain focused on the Gospel proper, and not its political implications. I'm forced to remember again today that God's plans are brilliant in their own disruptive way.

In a now-famous experiment on human cognition and attention, Daniel Simons and Christopher Chabris demonstrated that the human mind can easily be fooled by its inability to effectively multitask and/or see the larger picture when directing its attention. I believe there is deep spiritual significance in this experiment. While we are all intently focused on our day-to-day lives, and the doom and gloom of the news headlines, it can be extremely easy to miss the fact that God is sovereign, and the Holy Spirit is moving in the midst of all these weird and wacky events to bring about God's sovereign plan for our good and his glory.

Don't miss the gorilla.

Even if there is a plague outbreak, even if there are mass protests and a deeply contentious election scheduled this year. Don't lose sight of what God is doing to bring history closer to its culmination. History concludes with a wedding between Christ as the bridegroom and the Church as his beautiful bride. Everything that happens before that is just prologue.

I have written in the past about the need to materially prepare for hardship. I also state in My 25 Theses that material preparation should be a part of every Christian's anticipation of events which will likely precede the return of Jesus Christ. Though 'end times' prophecy and doomsday prepping are a laughable stereotype among right-wing nutjob evangelicals, I don't think it's an entirely unwise practice, considering how unpredictable life can be in general.

Matthew 25 follows immediately on the heels of Jesus telling his disciples what the signs of the end times would look like. The parable of the five wise and five foolish virgins gives as an important admonition to keep our lamps trimmed and burning, meaning in my opinion that material preparations leave us more well-situated to await the return of the Groom with joy.

Some advice I once received from a very skilled counselor about my continual desire to do what's best for others:

"When you're traveling on an airplane, what do they tell you during the safety brief?"
"I dunno." I replied.
"They tell you to fix your own oxygen mask before helping others."
"Mind. blown."

We live at a level of privilege and comfort that most of the world can only dream of. In times of crisis, those of us who are still able to sit comfortably shouldn't marvel in superiority at the misery of others. Rather, we should leverage our material blessings (as with the parable of the bags of gold) in order to gain friends for yourselves that will last forever. The parable of the wise virgins, however, does illustrate that there should also be a limit to your generosity.

This post is my best attempt to persuade you all to stock up. Many economic experts agree that we haven't fully comprehended the extent of the damage yet, and the DOW Jones is in no way reflective of the actual health of the economy anymore. Billionaires will profit regardless of economic conditions, sometimes they even leverage a crisis to make money. If you're not looking after your own survival interests, you may be sorely disappointed when the supply chain woes ruin your trip to the grocery store.

As I wish to convey by the title, this is not a message of doom and gloom.

Isaiah 35 is a chapter filled with hope and promise, amid an entire book that prophesies death and destruction for the nation of Israel. Even though they were guilty of abandoning God, and would soon face invasion and exile by the Assyrians in the North and the Babylonians in the South, yet God took a moment amidst all the harsh words to remind them that his love was everlasting (Jer. 31:3).

If it feels strangely like you're being buried and drowned, maybe God is planting you like a seed for a period of later growth and flourishing.

Bloom where you're planted. Don't wait for a more optimal season; start planting seeds today for the life you hope to live in the future, and trust God to make your plans successful. You're blessed to be a blessing to others.

Today we're all a little Sheldon-y.

My roommate came home yesterday with a small cough, and I decided to skip work today out of an abundance of caution. Though this disease has serious ramifications for the elderly, I think it's important to remember to keep a light heart in spite of whatever life throws at us. I'm strangely at peace while the world seems to be going a little crazy.

This is due in no small part to the fact that I believe in Jesus Christ, and the Gospel tells us that "God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and sound mind." (2 Timothy 1:7). There are many passages of Scripture that speak of safety in the midst of madness, one of my favorites being Psalm 91. Isaiah 26:3 also says "You will keep [them] in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you."

I have once again been a loud critic of the ponderous and minimizing response of the Executive Branch to this crisis. Nevertheless, I am grateful that as of today, there does appear to be a response. My only hope as things likely get worse in the coming weeks is that the suffering and death will be minimal, and that this pandemic will lead to a change in people's attitudes.

What matters more than universal healthcare or a coordinated government response is the fact that Christ was a great advocate for healing. He didn't even judge people by their "worthiness" to receive care. It's time to acknowledge, as I've said many times before, that the Bible is not a manifesto for ruthless capitalism.

It's time to revitalize the lost art of compassion. Though I am often guilty of painting with broad brushstrokes and categorically condemning supporters of Trump, I have to acknowledge that many of the people I love and respect are still in support of his agenda. I wish and pray every day that their eyes will be opened to the apolitical and transcendent nature of the Gospel, which espouses both Democratic and Republican ideals at various points. He's a God who cares for the orphan, the foreigner, and the widow.

If we as a nation can afford $1.5 Trillion in stimulus benefits for Wall Street, it's no stretch at all to say that we can afford universal healthcare and free testing for the Coronavirus. Taxes and government subsidies are a fact of modern life, and for those who call Jesus their Lord and Savior, it shouldn't strike them as controversial that the people of our nation need care in times of crisis. One thing that was always true, but now is readily apparent, is that the health of our poorest neighbor has always been our concern.

I don't want to sound like an evangelist for liberal ideals. What I really am is a proponent of intellectual honesty. If you truly read the Book with a mind not polluted by party rhetoric, you will see that compassion is the supreme law.

I don't have a concise point here, other than the fact that we're all in this together. One principle that I'm very grateful for in my years of military experience is that we succeed or fail as a team. Individual accomplishments are meant to be lauded, but leaving your weakest teammates behind will always be met with scorn and harsh discipline in a military training environment.

I've spent the last three or so years on this blog trying to convince everyone who will listen that Donald Trump is not someone who Bible-believing Christians should be defending, let alone cheering for. Whereas most of my arguments are Biblical in nature, and based largely on judgments of his actions and character, I now also appeal to law and linguistics.

The following is a quote from my textbook used in the Forensic Linguistics class I took last semester (Solan, L. M. & Tiersma, P. M. (2005). Speaking of Crime: the Language of Criminal Justice. Chicago University Press, p.181.):

Trump is unequivocally guilty of a crime.

Whereas his likely tax fraud and his near-certain collusion with Russia remain hidden due to his relentless obstruction of justice (a prosecutable offense in itself), his crime of solicitation is now a matter of public record (WSJ, BBC, Fox News). Using one's office to launch a very dubious investigation into one's political opponent in an upcoming election is downright corruption, not to mention a huge conflict of interest.

His continued bullying of witnesses on Capitol Hill is also a matter of public record (BBC, Reuters), as well as his ambiguous allusion to "handling spies" such as the whistleblower. This is almost certainly witness tampering. I now present another quote from Solan & Tiersma (p. 204):

The text goes on to prove at length that a speech act "counts" as a threat if it was intended to intimidate the victim, and that victim's perceptions are relevant. To quote the above article from Reuters: "Representative Adam Schiff, who is chairing the hearing in the House Intelligence Committee, asked Yovanovitch for her reaction to the tweet. She said it was 'very intimidating.' ”

Regardless of your politics, the highest office in the land is, and rightfully ought to be, accountable to the law. Whether the Senate Republicans abide by their constitutional oath or not remains to be seen, but even if they don't, the man is absolutely guilty.

There is no rational defense.